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Raymond’s face was irritated when he said it was because of himself.
“What do you mean it’s because of me?”
“The rumors of His Majesty’s child, which Lizzena had brought, have already spread throughout the whole empire. Did you think the Empress would have nothing to do with it?”1
“That is…”
<‘Duke. I promise. I will pay back your allegiance to me with Ellie’s happiness.’>
The Duke, who knew he didn’t love Ellie, spoke it out with his mouth in fear of opposing marriage.
And he thought he had keep it in his own way.
I didn’t love Ellie, but I thought it wasn’t needed to make her happy. Happiness didn’t necessarily mean love.
“……”
But now Raymond couldn’t say anything.
When he attempted to, He purposely refused to let him see Ellie.
Every time I looked at her, my mind was strange.
Somehow it made him uncomfortable and stuffy.
So he avoided Ellie.
So he couldn’t tell if Ellie was happy. Duke Croft’s purple eyes looking at him were the same as Ellie’s, and his heart was stuffy again.
(Wait is this BL now? No, I think he just has a fetish of purple eyes…)
While watching Raymond speak nothing, the duke made a short sigh.
“Your Majesty, please return back today.”
“….When the empress shows signs of improvement, put the scorpion away, Duke.”
(Scorpion means the Duke’s rude attitude to Raymond!)
“Yes, Your Majesty.”
When Raymond left the Empress Palace and was confirmed that his figure had completely disappeared, a maid approached the Duke.
“Your Excellency, Her Majesty the Empress, has found stability.”
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“Your Majesty, how is the pain from before?”
“I’m a lot better, is the baby better than before too?”
“Yes, the baby is fine. I’m just surprised because you’ve been under so much pressure.”
At the doctor’s note, I was finally able to exhale a sigh of relief.
Throughout the treatment, my teeth trembled with fear.
Just in case something went wrong with my baby.
As I prayed and prayed to Lumen for medication and treatment, I could feel the pain gradually getting better.
And now I couldn’t feel any pain at all.
I’m so glad. Baby, I won’t give you any trouble again.
At the time when I was making a pledge with a precious pat on my belly, my father rushed in when the door opened.
The doctor stepped back and my father came to me.
“Your Majesty, how are you? Are you feeling better now? “
A slight smile stood in the face of her father, who was shaking for a while.
“Yeah, don’t worry about anything. I’ll do everything so His Majesty never knows the child’s existence, so you’ll just care about getting yourself in shape.”
My father, who was gently stroked my head like a child, was talking to me.
“As soon as it dawns tomorrow, send the Duke’s official letter asking for a divorce.”
The Duke’s official letter.
I understood my father’s intention not to stress me out, but I wanted to end with Raymond myself.
It is right that I have to end it with him because I loved him for a long time and all I need to do is start over again.
“No, father.”
“I’ll do that. I don’t think I’ll have any more lingering feelings if I put it on my own. “
“….Will you be all right? “
“Yes. It’s okay, because I don’t expect anything from him anymore. And I have something more important than Raymond. I’m sure I will protect my child this time.”
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End of Chapter 010
Now All I want to say is that I’ve been reading some very conflicting answers and opinions of the characters, Whether your on Ellie’s or Raymond’s side, I have found one beautiful written opinion that fits both of them, you don’t have to read it obviously, But I suggest that you please read it so you get a whole idea of their perspectives and not to judge them right away!
@Otomeaddict:
I feel I’m carrying over a bit of my fury from IDWTBL. (I don’t want to be loved) Though how I feel about Rhiannon and Ellie’s situations are different.
I don’t think FL’s insecurities are unreasonable and I don’t think the problem is from her lack of communication. Her biggest insecurity that he doesn’t love her and thinks of her as an obligation is perfectly understandable given the circumstances. He told her various times in the past he had loved Liz and when he failed to get Liz and settled for her he told her that he may not be able to give her love. That stops her from asking for understanding, comfort and affection. Why ask if he gave the answer from the start and appears to be getting progressively colder. She understands him to be a faithful man (As someone who has known and has been close to him a long time) because of his promise to her which would hurt more because she knows that he loved Liz and given his faithful probably still does. Logical conclusion jump.
I can’t believe that ML can understand that the illegitimate child would hurt FL because of her horrifying miscarriage but can’t understand his coldness/distancing is hurting her even more. He should know better than anyone that having someone reach out when you’re hurt is extremely comforting because of what Liz did for him years ago. He even recognizes that he forgot to think about her condition when she’s absent and that she’s sad but immediately three seconds later thinks that now is a good moment to convince her to recognize and adopt his illegitimate son. Surely he isn’t so much of an idiot he doesn’t realize FL at least likes him even if he doesn’t think it’s love right? Probably not. Shiet…. He doesn’t have as much of an excuse as Igor to be so distant from FL too because they were friends on good terms prior to marriage.
The author can bend this however they want but I think no matter how the story unfolds I feel like the ML is more at fault than FL’s crippling insecurities as of this moment in time.